All By Myself

No one to talk to? Alone in your room? No plans for the evening?
Wow, you must be lonely.
Umm, no.
Well okay, if that is the case most of the times, maybe. But once in a while I think everyone needs this. Everyone needs alone time.

There is a particular feeling in being alone that I absolutely love. When the setting is just right. The lighting is perfect, mostly right before sunset. There is not a soul around. There is nothing but silence all around you. And it doesn't matter if you're outside, looking at the scene unfold among the trees. Or if you're in your room, sitting near your window in the quaint sunlight. Not a soul around. You're all by yourself in the soft light from the setting sun and you feel completely at peace. And you're left alone to wonder. About anything. Be it idle fantasies, or harsh realities. To ponder over the meaning of life. Anything. Without any disturbances, without anyone influencing your thoughts.
Just put away your phone and stay away from social networking sites and you're good. You're on a date with yourself.

Sometimes during these rare stolen moments of solitude, I read books. Anything I like. Things that tug at my emotions.
Or sometimes I write, like right now.
Or I listen to music. Calming music that just makes everything seem so much better. Current favorite for times like these is Heartstrings by Leighton Meester. And all time favorite is Erase and Rewind by the Cardigans. Throw in a little John Mayer, Milo Greene and a few others. And you have the perfect playlist. Watch a movie of your choice, Bawl your eyes out at sad scenes and laugh your ass off during jokes. Be uninhibited. Find out what makes your tick.

I don't think we really understand how important it is to get to know oneself away from all the distractions and interruptions. We forget who we really are or we never really ever even get to find out. What do you want to do in life? Are you happy with what you've done so far? Do you like who you are as a person? We tend to answer these questions according to what is socially acceptable or according to how other people think.

I know so many people riddled with insecurities and who constantly need to be in the company of someone. Why? You need to start liking yourself and if someone doesn't like you, well, their loss!
Be confident, be strong, be yourself. Speak your mind. Do what you want! Trust me, do not have any regrets. Know that you did your best, know that you tried.

I mean, just look at me, I don't know if anyone will even read this or that anyone will even care. But i'm still writing because I want to. Because I want people to know that they matter and that everyone is unique and you won't find out who you are till you are by yourself.

So take some time out just for you and you might meet someone you maybe never knew existed.